Don't know what to say....

First of all... All I wan't with this blogpost is to wright down my feelings, maybe that's odd, maybe no one will see this, but I just want to get these feelings somewhere else and I don't care if my English is wrong or not....

So my horse (well it's daddies horse) won't help me in the showpen anymore, she won't be able to even sit on...
And I'm broken in a thousand pieces, not because she won't look good in the showpen, it's because I'm so worried about that she won't be happy, because she can't even take a loop in the arena, she  can't take walks in the wood because it's too painful for her.
What if she won't be happy, and if it is so, I have to say goodbye, and I'm not sure if I can take that again in such a short time (my pony had to take his last breath last year).
She is everything to me, when she came to Sweden she was empty, when I looked into har eyes I saw nothing, but I started to brush her everyday, I took her on walks, after a couple of weeks she started to trust me, her eyes started to look alive again, and just look at her know! She screams when she see me, she love when I brush her behind her ear, she close her eyes and put her head against my chest, and what if all of this just ends one day soon? Actually, I think that's going to be too much for me to take, and I don't say that to sound selfish, it's because I don't want my best friend to disappere, to go away in the emptiness....


I know the text was very rambly, I don't even know if it's able to read....


Spook Nu You,Okie....
I LOVE YOU

/IDA

Horses

So let's talk about horses. Why am I so damn intrested in those big animals?
Well that's kinda the easiest quastion I will ever answer. I am interested in those animals because of the comunication they have, if you understand the comunication you understand the horse, if you understand the horse, the horse will understand you. I love to watch horses when they are in their pastures, it's so interesting to see how they are and how they "talk" with each other.
So if you use the horses comunication in the everyday management the horse understands you much easier and you and the horse will create a much stronger bond and the horse will more natural choose you to lead the pac.
When you've came this far the horse will "forever" trust you.
And if you think of it, it's kinda awseome to have the trust of this big animal.
The horses never choosed to have us on their backs, they never choosed to be in a stable.
So if horses and riding is going to be our lifestyle, we must treat the ones we work with (our horses) well and always do our best to take care of them. Brush them, feed them, take them on walks, have them in pastures and it's also our job to raise them well so they can feel comfortable about the situation we put them in, and never ever do something that will hurt them, because they never choosed to have this life.
// Ida

Cat

Fiffelina

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