So my horse (well it's daddies horse) won't help me in the showpen anymore, she won't be able to even sit on...
And I'm broken in a thousand pieces, not because she won't look good in the showpen, it's because I'm so worried about that she won't be happy, because she can't even take a loop in the arena, she can't take walks in the wood because it's too painful for her.
What if she won't be happy, and if it is so, I have to say goodbye, and I'm not sure if I can take that again in such a short time (my pony had to take his last breath last year).
She is everything to me, when she came to Sweden she was empty, when I looked into har eyes I saw nothing, but I started to brush her everyday, I took her on walks, after a couple of weeks she started to trust me, her eyes started to look alive again, and just look at her know! She screams when she see me, she love when I brush her behind her ear, she close her eyes and put her head against my chest, and what if all of this just ends one day soon? Actually, I think that's going to be too much for me to take, and I don't say that to sound selfish, it's because I don't want my best friend to disappere, to go away in the emptiness....
I know the text was very rambly, I don't even know if it's able to read....
Spook Nu You,Okie....
I LOVE YOU
/IDA
